For a long time I wanted to create a blog but the man I was married to would not allow it. In creating this blog today I am exerting my freedom to make my own decisions and do the things I have desired, but was not allowed to do. I have no idea where this journey is going to take me, but that is part of the reason I love to write. I take off in directions I never expected and I journey to places I’d never even dreamed.
I am blessed to be the mother of seven wonderful children. It isn’t easy, especially since I’m doing it alone. I didn’t want to be a mom raising seven kids, but sometimes the choices other people make send our lives spinning in a direction we would never want. That is what happened to me. Now I’m picking up the pieces of 8 shattered lives and and trying to patch those broken hearts the best I can.
Every day brings a new and different challenge. I am taxed beyond my limits every day, but the LORD gives me strength to do what needs to be done. Some days I even manage to get things done with style and grace. Those are the days I feel like I’ve impacted my children and my world for the better. Of course, those days are few and far between. I usually put the children to bed with a feeling that I haven’t even begun to meet their daily needs. Friends and family remind me that even two parents can never meet all the needs of their children, but the guilt of not being able to give my children the father they so desperately need is overwhelming. I struggle every day to try to be mom and dad. It doesn’t work. So I need to find another way and I’ve asked God to give me direction.